Well Well Well it looks like a few days have passed since I posted, not that anyone noticed but then again am I really doing this for you anyway...
I tend to get bored really easy and switch between the fifty different things I have going on or strike up an interest in, which if I sit here and think about
It is quite a bit of crap.....
Realized today that I am on my 5th day of vacation and haven't really done anything. Was suppose to go to Wisconsin on my vacation but like always something came
Up and my plans were cancelled. Not that it was anyone's fault just shit happens.... Happens quite a bit in my life but I deal, one way or another, I deal.
Classes start tomorrow, which I am excited about.simply because it keeps my flippin brain busy. Yes, my brain in constantly thinking and all over the place, which is
Why my blogging will never ever make any sense but anyway I am just some girl somewhere on the Internet...........
History of 'Just some girl somewhere on the Internet'...well since you asked, oh wait you didn't but I am going to tell you anyway.
I became friends with someone on the Internet, we will call him 'J', anyway me and J began talking quite a lot on FB and kinda got
Interested in each other. Anyway, he tells me I am a close friend now (we've been talking for almost a year now) and I just say that I am just some girl somewhere on the Internet.
And really let's not kid ourselves here, I AM just some girl somewhere on the internet....nothing more... No we have not met yet..and when I sit back and analyze things, I don't think
We will ever.....One day I will go into more details about all this, and boy you will get a laugh at some of the ways I tried to scare him off, no they didn't work, which I guess that
Should count for something...Let's put it this way I have SERIOUS trust issues.... Anyway that is how my little phrase just some girl somewhere on the Internet got started... I kinda
Like it.....
Oh you ask about my trust issues? Oh wait you didn't but that's ok because, guess what?, I'm going to tell you anyway...
I don't trust anyone as far as I can spit and I can't spit very far at all. Yes, that also includes my parents....
I automatically assume that anything anyone says to me is automatically a lie, and if they are nice to me, there is some reason for it,
They either want something, or they have done something that is going to piss me off or they are getting ready to do something to me
That is going to piss me off...Which so far it has been true, that if someone is nice to me, there is a motive behind their niceness...
I didn't help matters much when growing up all I ever heard from my mom was that they were only being nice to me or wanted to be
My friend because we had a nice home and nice things, and then it became because I had a car, a place to live, etc.... No one could ever like me
For who I am... I guess after a few years of that being drilled into my head, I started believing that no one wanted to be my friend or date me because they
They liked me and only me...
So here I sit, just some girl somewhere on the Internet with some serious trust issues, waiting to find that one person who can break down the walls and let me know
That they like me for me and nothing else.....This is the 'Year of Me', the year that I break free from the chains that hold me back and start dealing with my issues and start
Living my life... Ha! Easier said than done but luckily I am one stubborn chick that doesn't give up that easily ;)
Well I guess that is it for now,
Sweet Dreams,
Just some girl somewhere on the Internet.......
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